I was sixteen when I first heard ‘Smells Like Teen
Spirit'. After struggling with my mate's heavy metal record
collection I finally had music I could identify with. I became
obsessed with all things Sub Pop. Decked in army surplus and with badly
dyed hair I would hop on the 333 up Streatham High Road
to Brixton Academy to watch the likes of Sonic Youth, Faith No
More and Smashing Pumpkins. Spare time spent
scouring the TV for rare appearances, assembling vinyl collections and reading
Melody Maker.
Brixton Academy and London Astoria became as important landmarks as the
House of Parliament and Tower Bridge. A ticket to a concert allowing more than
just entry to watch a band. Getting past the bouncers like walking
through a portal into a world where the biggest, stinkiest and ugliest sat atop
the evolutionary tree and nowhere was this more true than within the mosh pit.
Nothing prepares you for your first mosh pit. The moment your legs
are swept from underneath and you find yourself swimming against the tide in an
urban ocean rip. Vast, chaotic, violent and safer than an evening at The
Manor Arms. The best bit was being able to recount the tales on a Monday
morning at the local café thankful to have survived the event. For some
it was too much. The mosh pit at Rage Against The Machine's 1993 concert
led to two of my mates refusing to go anywhere near the front of a gig
again.
At weekends when money didn’t stretch to watching a band my friends
would recreate mosh pits at house parties throughout South London.
One evening we were kicked out of a third floor flat after our energetic
moshing led to the ceiling of the room below to cave in. I still remember
us trooping down the stairs with the owner shrieking and pointing at us “Look
at your boots! Look at your boots! And yours, and yours!” as a
steady stream of Doc Martin wearing Indie kids filed down the stairs.
Each of us taking a quick glance into the poor woman's room where large chunks
of plaster covered her bed.
For something so archaic it was relatively ordered event to get a mosh
started. Two people would link arms and throw themselves onto a floor
with other party goers invited to launch themselves on top. Before long
an island of limbs would be writhing away. Darkened bodies would fling
themselves off nearby tables, chairs and large pieces of furniture. While
the same characters every week would hang back to make sure they got the
largest pile of bodies to jump on and avoid getting crushed or injured.
These sneaky types wouldn’t be allowed to get away with it for long though and
would be collared and forced to start the whole process off again.
Any participation event that combines alcohol with wild youthful
abandonment against a backdrop of heavy rock led more often than not to
calamity and malady. Chipped chairs, smashed family heirlooms and that
broken ceiling I already mentioned. Then there was the day I launched
myself off a sofa only to find half way through my dive there was nobody
waiting to catch my fall. My parents were none too thrilled to find on
their return from their weekend away not only had I hosted a party in their
absence I’d broken my arm.
I had also got my ear pierced and watching them walk up the front path I
figured while I couldn’t do anything about the plaster cast that covered my
entire arm I could do something about the two bits of cheap silver in my ear
and hurriedly took them out as their key was put in the lock.
The worst bit about mosh pits weren’t the cracked bones or having to
answer to angry parents demanding to know why there were footprints on the
ceiling. It was the claustrophobia that engulfed me whenever I was
trapped amid the bodies. Even after a couple of litres of Olde English I
couldn’t stay in that position for long. The fear would rise up to my
throat and I’d start clambering out as quickly as possible.
I can remember the first time I ever experienced claustrophobia.
It was in the days before duvets and I burrowed to the bottom of my bed only
for my dad to sit on the end trapping me inside. The swell of panic was
immediate. It is the same for my brother and it used to be a frequent
sight for one of us to be frantically hauling bodies off the mosh-pile to free
the other when it all got a bit too much.
It’s been 20 years since my last house party mosh pit but alcohol still
plays a part in my phobia. I’ve long since learned to avoid certain
situations while struggling with the after effects of an evening out.
Hangovers and rush hour on The London Underground do not make for excellent bed
fellows. And even now - every now and again - when my tube is stuck in a
tunnel - I have to fight the fear.
Time slows down when you're stuck in a situation you
cannot get out of. Be it in a tunnel, under a pile of teenage bodies or
after you've just called your teacher 'mum' in front of the whole class.
However there are no hard and fast rules. Sometimes it's possible
to shrug these situations off with a laugh. Sometimes not.
And so it came to pass at just before tea on day three
of the Lord’s test when I decided to take a walk little knowing I was about to
test this theory out. I intended a quick stroll around the ground to a little
vantage point I'd found on day one. Instead I ended up getting properly
stuck.
The Lord's media box is a famous sight in cricket.
From the outside it resembles something from Space Odyssey and it draws
admiring glances from those inside the ground who bother to stick around after
lunch to watch the cricket. Inside though you'll find few in agreement.
It's difficult to feel connected to the action when you're locked away in
a soundless environment so far from the paying spectator. And however
good the Lord's lunches are they are more than matched by how bad the lifts
are.
Riding the Lord's lift is never a pleasant
experience. It is less reliable than an over by Steven Kerrigan.
It’s broken down more times than Ryan Harris and has even trapped Ian Botham in
the past. It also has a disconcerting way of wobbling up and down when it
reaches the top floor.
There were already six people in it as I entered and
just as the door started to shut Michael Vaughan jumped in. There were a
few mock groans as a tight squeeze became a group hug but nobody minded too
much.
A moment later though this changed as seconds
after the doors shut and the lift started to descend everything shuddered to a
halt.
We all looked stupidly at each other and there was a momentary silence
before Vaughan started pressing buttons. There were three on
offer. The doors open option. Nothing. The doors close
option. Nothing. The press in emergency option. The opposite
of nothing. Immediately a high pitched wailing sound reverberated
around the lift. It was the kind of sound that meant if you hadn’t
initially been fearing the worse you now would be.
With the buzzer booming out I pictured the sight of the media floor
slowly putting their cutlery down and staring at the closed lift door. I
could hear the collective sigh of relief that this mishap hadn’t befallen those
about to tuck into tea. Meanwhile those inside the lift were beginning to understand
the position they had found themselves in.
There was the sound of activity not far above our heads and we realised
we were far nearer the top of the lift shaft than the bottom and soon a voice
came through on the intercom checking we were alright and informing us an
engineer had been called. Oh and asking whether anyone had started
freaking out yet. Did they know I was in there?
The answer to both of those was no, we were all relatively calm.
Even me. However every five minutes or so there would be a lull in the
conversation and I would think to myself "am I going to freak out
now?" I would wait a second and after deciding there was no sign of
a rise of imminent fear decide I wasn’t and carry on.
It was also handy that I wasn’t in desperate need of the loo. Or
that the cable didn’t snap while we were stranded twenty metres in the air.
Or that the air didn’t run out. Or that the sounds of Mudhoney
weren’t pumped down the lift shaft sparking off an impromptu mosh.
Lack of hangover aside the reason I didn’t start scrabbling at the doors
and sucking in air was the sheer surreal nature of what was happening.
It’s not often you are trapped in a lift and it’s even rarer to be with two
Ashes winners. So I just stood there, chatting, sweating, unbuttoning my
shirt and every now and again returning back to the question "am I going
to start panicking yet?" Nope, not yet. So far so good.
One of guys worked for Lord's and he told us we were lucky the engineer
on site. I mentioned Beefy had been stuck for a good half an hour before help
came. We weren't going anywhere for a while.
Small talk became the order of the day. There wasn't enough space
to sit down or move around so we all stood there as the temperature began to
rise. We talked about the cricket, we complained about the heat and then
we heard the crowd celebrate Peter Siddle's wicket.
The guy standing closest to the lift door kept coming up with
helpful phrases like “well if any of us were actually claustrophobic we would
know about it by now”, or “they are going to have to come and get us because
there’s not even an escape hatch at the top of the lift” and the best one “we
should have enough air to last us”.
Throughout all of this I was carrying my TalkSPORT microphone and
recording device. The thought did cross my mind to do some interviews
with those present but it really wouldn’t have gone down well. In the end the
only use I could find for my microphone was to wedge open the lift door to let
in a little air.
A quick tweet was all I permitted myself as well as a call to the
TalkSPORT control room to alert them to my plight.
Twentyfive minutes in and a voice from above shouted they were going to
winch us down. We were to be delayed even more and again the thought
crossed my mind that it was time to start weeping. The mood was lightened
seconds later by another shout. This time that an ambulance was waiting
for us at the bottom. I shouted back “why? What’s going to happen?”
And then finally after nearly a half of football the
lift began to move. Inch by inch it edged downwards before suddenly
speeding up - the end was in sight. There were cheers (mostly mine) as
the light at the bottom of the lift shaft came into view. And then
suddenly the doors were hoisted open, a great hulk stood at the door and we all
stepped blinking into the bright daylight where four or five St John’s staff
were waiting with wheelchairs and three or four of our fellow journalists stood
with pencils and notepads at the ready. I think they were all a little
disappointed that the scene that greeted them all was so ordered.
I will never take the Lord's lift again. Well
not the one on the left hand side. Later that evening after I'd packed up
my broadcasting equipment I figured I'd better get back on the horse.
I've got too many phobias as it is. So I pressed the button and
waited for the doors of the right hand side lift to open. I stepped
inside, alone this time, and watched as the doors closed. There was a
frisson of fear as the lift went through its worrying top floor wobble before
starting it's descent. I turned and looked at myself in the mirror
thought about how surreal an afternoon it had been and less than thirty seconds
I was at the bottom. I wonder if I'll ever write so many words about an
elevator ride again.
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